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  • Sink in

    How fast can you adapt?
    How fast can you break your chains?
    How fast can you accept your environment and go for a change?

    The more you are settled in your comfort zone
    Harder it will get to leave this area
    Think it like a giant beanbag
    Bigger it gets more you will sink in
    If you sink deep enough
    Forget getting up
    You will not even see what’s going on around you

    This is what holds you back
    And in your 20’s-30’s
    You have a chance to get up and flex and start moving
    The earlier you dive deep into your comfort zone
    More you are wasting
    Your opportunities, ideas, network

    Get up early as possible
    And don’t be afraid to stand from time to time
    There will be an age where you get to sit in the biggest bean bag of all

  • Good be good

    What are we judged with?
    The way we dress
    The way we talk, walk
    Table manners
    How we treat the waiter
    How we treat out mother & father
    How we treat a stray dog
    How we treat ourselves

    When you live up to no good
    Nothing good will look up to you
    With time one loses the opportunity
    To be good

    With time something else takes over
    Not misdeed I suppose
    Something far more effective
    Something that will nail you
    To the place you are in

    There are only two on earth
    That has no place for progress
    One is the dead
    Either in grave or somewhere else
    And the other is the cheated
    Who breathes and looks
    But does not live and can not see

    Make sure
    You are not any of these two
    If you are
    Let’s hope that
    You are the former

  • Finding self

    I do not know
    When does one find their true self?

    Is it with the isolation?
    No contact with a friend, no contact with outside world
    No interactions nor communications
    Living like a hermit in the woods?

    Or

    The opposite?
    When swimming in the ocean of simulations and personalities?
    Running from one tree to another
    Tasting every possible fruit and desire for more
    Creating a self from the endless opportunities

  • Book Review: The Bear Went Over The Mountain

    How interesting?
    Same name of a book used in 3 different genres.

    Let’s start with soft-core:
    Children’s (babies?) book
    Do babies even read? We don’t know. Because they don’t output any understandable sound which we call a language doesn’t mean they can’t read right? Anyhow, this is a kindergarten level book with 20 to 30 pages written by lots of different authors and publishers since the 90’s. Which also has a nursery rhyme dedicated to it.

    Moving up:
    We have a novel from William Kotzwinkle. You may think to yourself, where have I heard this name before? Let me give you a tip, he is also the author of E.T.

    And with a glamorous finish:
    The Bear Went Over the Mountain: Soviet Combat Tactics in Afghanistan
    I know right. Where did that come from? This is a genuine book focused on the Soviet forces and their warfare strategies in Afghanistan.

    You can buy 3 of these books and make 3 generations of households happy in single Amazon delivery.

    This being said; I’ve read only one of these (for now). Which is the novel by Kotzwinkle.

    A short summary would be; A bear steals a manuscript and acts as a human publishing this book, achieves amazing success always being compared to Hemingway, both in literary efforts and look-wise. With success, bear circles into the upper elite and make lots of friends. And while the bear drowns in human level comfort and achievement the original author of the book suffers in the countryside down with depression.

    A flowing read that carries you throughout the book. In the middle of the book you may have had enough of unique characters entering into the book which I’ve found exhausting. Characters and their depth were rich however nearly all were for single use only. Not that it upsets me or anything, the timeline bothers me. How? Well the start of the book and development of the story goes nearly day by day, working around a 24 hour time gap. But after the 90% of the book this speeds up and reaches weekly timing. The way I see it Kotzwinkle was having a good time roleplaying with the bear and its interactions. And at a certain point he realized that this is a book, and it should be nearing the end if there isn’t going to be a sequel, which there isn’t.

    7/10

  • Against the tide

    In any topic
    Where people are divided with their opinions
    And believe in their opinions like no other
    And defend their opinions like a castle
    It makes the topic fragile
    You can watch & listen
    But if the opinion owners are out of alignment from objectivity
    An outsider comment will be taken as an assault

    If it’s a black & white area for them
    Your participation will be frowned upon
    They want full support and nothing more
    No advice, no suggestion

    This is where the constructive criticism dies
    Once the receiving end of the criticism loses their common sense
    Any input shared, even it’s for their own good is hated

    I think this is the common issue for any sensible topic we have
    For religions, gender talks, family structure…
    And once it dies process comes to an halt
    It causes the inevitable death of both sides
    Their ideas & identities gets washed away
    Only to be replaced by their successors
    And with new faces same question comes up
    Are you open for criticism?

  • Being honest

    Once hit with the question
    “Are you honest to yourself?”
    Answers will flood in with “yes”
    If you scratch the surface
    And ask for details
    You may receive things like;
    “Well I’m fat, I can lose a couple of pounds”
    “Sometimes I may be difficult to work with”
    “I don’t really like my partners cat”

    Thank you 
    Thank you for the vanilla ice cream

    Accepting something of your own is probably the 10% of the honesty you really need
    Acknowledgement of simple stuff like your weight or bad habits is not the main course
    The honesty every intellect needs is the soul crushing isolated thinking even it may drift one into depression from time to time
    Not that it should, but it usually does

    Who are you?
    Why are these people your friends?
    Do you really trust no one like you tell yourself?
    What makes you think you are unique?
    What broke your heart?

    These can go for pages only if one can answer

  • You’ve got mail!

    Let’s think our media input as an email inbox
    What is directed to us is relevant
    Such as emails from family & friends
    Mails from your bank regarding your card payment
    PDF  brochures and price quotations you have requested from a tourism agency 
    All these either coming from a person you have a real life connection to
    Or from an establishment only within your request and approval
    In an healthy world nothing comes here without your need

    Rest of the emails
    Such as
    Banned books in schools of Mississippi
    Self-driving truck makes delivery 10 hours faster than a human
    How Naomi Campbell surprised this Nigerian designer on the runway
    These are considered spam emails.
    Not because the topics are trash
    Because they are here without our request.
    We have neither interest nor demand for these.
    Yet here they are.
    And more sadly this is not our inbox.

    This is what we do
    With aimless swiping
    Why they are there?
    No one knows
    Why am I seeing this?
    No idea
    We need our precision more than ever while filtering when we  put ourselves out there

    It’s one big ocean and easy to drown
    I’m not even talking about reliability of these things
    That’s a whole different dumpster fire

  • Do it everyday

    Up’s and down’s
    Giving 100%
    All the time
    Every time

    Until you can’t
    And when you can’t give 100%
    You know what counts?
    Giving
    Giving counts
    No percentage
    No high score

    Still grinding
    Even in your bad days
    That’s what counts
    Anybody can do it on their sunny day
    It’s the bad days that change the mean
    Also
    It’s the bad days that change the man

    And at the end
    The mean shows us the overview
    The final result
    Did we win or what?

  • Things we want to hear

    We interact
    We give
    We take
    That’s the deal

    Raised up in a capitalist world
    We like taking
    More than giving


    We tell a story
    A happening
    Something that made us
    Laugh, cry or think
    And while we are giving this
    We aren’t open handed
    Sitting there destitute

    We are predators
    We want something
    And we are not leaving without it
    That is the Reply
    A custom reply that will support us
    That will make us feel good
    No questions to examine
    Our morals or ethics

    Even in the most desperate stories
    We know the menu of replies by heart
    We just want that specific answer
    That will make us say
    I knew it!
    Thank you!


    And know that I have received
    What I wanted to hear
    Would you like to
    Share a story of your own?

  • Plush achievements

    Every once in a while 
    We need to cut some slack for ourselves
    A day off
    Binging through streaming services
    A day full of gaming 
    Swiping through dumpster fire social media

    While these are relaxing both body and mind
    It’s not always fulfilling 
    At the end of the day we may look back and think
    “What a waste of day”
    A total couchpotato

    The way I see it
    There is another way to cut slack from the usual marathon

    This method however, seems more “corporate”
    You need a break 
    But you need the fulfillment 
    You need the feeling of achievement
    Yet 
    You don’t want your casual tasks 
    That’s a different menu
    If you focused on them this wouldn’t differ from any other monday 
    What you need is something diluted
    Something soft to embrace
    Something so in the middle
    You will be excited for this however it will not drain your spirit

    An easy, satisfying task
    Clean your computer’s desktop for example
    Rearrange books on shelf
    Deep clean your espresso machine
    Shine your shoes
    Stack the wood
    These are all small plush achievements
    Within your comfort zone
    That doesn’t require any special resources
    Yet satisfy you when completed
    Low hanging fruits
    Soothing dopamine
    Enjoy it 
    Till it wears off!